I am writing this post with a heavy heart today. Its been heavy since Tuesday, August 28th. Please do not admit me to a home after reading this...even if you truly believe that's where I belong.( LOL!)
I have been following the most AMAZING blog I have ever read for several months now. I can't even tell you how I came across it. (devine intervention I suppose). But I have never in my all my life in any way, shape or form-been more inspired by someone. Someone here on earth. And (the reason I may be admitted) NEVER MET! I had no clue who this woman was but I do now. Is it possible to have a "best" friend that you have never met? I know so many things about her. I know her birthday, her anniversary, her children's names, her husbands name, I know that she was born overseas, her parents did mission work, she is a physical therapist. I know that she has always dreamed of being a writer. (I think she is now qualified as one-she is an AMAZING writer). I know where she lives, I know where she goes to church.I know she has had some really bad days in her life. I know that she lost her daughter Anna (on her wedding anniversary), two weeks before she was to be born. I know that she was diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancer (on her birthday). I know that this woman has more faith and belief in the Lord than any one single person I know. I know that she has not only inspired me but THOUSANDS of people across the world. Yes the world. So I guess many people may feel this way-that they have a best friend in her, although have not physical met her. She has pushed me to be a better person-a better Christian. She has put so many things into perspective for me. She has made look at simple things in life in a whole new light as well as the Bible and God himself. I otherwise would not have read a simple Bible verse and interpreted it they way she did. I have grown to hold a special place for her in my heart. I did not want to tell people that I was reading the blog of an "unknown" woman. It sounds crazy. But I think God has other plans. I think He wants people to know about this amazing woman. He wants me to share her story with you. Please, please, please go to her CaringBridge site and then later to her own blog. You have to go in order from oldest post to newest to get the whole story, to really get to know her and get her message...God's message. I am sure without a doubt, that you too will make friends with her. I know that you will gain at least one thing from reading her stories. (although I know it will be many many more!) It will take time...it's like reading a book. Please read her book. Her trials were the death of her daughter and dealing with cancer. But she makes it very clear that we all have trials-all different. But you can look at the things she says and does the same way. She makes you think about today...not tomorrow. She says numerous times that yes she has stage four cancer and could die tomorrow....but someone healthy and no cancer could also die tomorrow. So let's all live like we are dying.
Below are just a few of her writings that really reached out to me. Her writings are so real and true.
I have also attached the link to a YOUTUBE video that she presented to her church. (But please still start from the beginning of her story). God was working through her. SAVOR THE DAY!
http://youtu.be/I8AshaJQTIk (this the youtube video)
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/sarawalker (start here..oldest post first)
http://www.savoringtheday.com/ (you will end up here..be sure to click on all the tabs for more inspiration)
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I am falling in love with Jesus.
I want to sit with Him, talking to Him, listening to His Word, ALL THE TIME and I am frankly getting impatient for heaven so I can see Him.
I thought I loved Him before.
I was raised to know Him, raised to pray in His name. Raised to think of His sacrifice during communion. Raised to appreciate His suffering.
But now, now...oh what joy He brings! Oh how I can just see, just SEE Him sitting beside me, holding my hand, smiling at me. I see Him laughing a big, boisterous, tear-inducing, belly-shaking laugh along with me when my little Scott does something funny (which is every day.) I imagine us in heaven, sitting with our feet dipped in the river of life, listening to the birds sing and feeling a cool breeze on our faces, talking and just enjoying the view. I imagine then noticing the holes in his hand and crying, sobbing because He had to do that for me, and Him wrapping His arms around me, wiping away the tears and saying, "Oh, Sara. It was my great joy to suffer for you. You were so, so worth it."
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This is why I feel constrained on this site. In this place on the world wide web, I am defined as "The Cancer Patient." I am the young mother with colon cancer.
But that is not who I am. I am a child of God, temporarily residing in this world, in this time, in this body until I go to my true home, my forever home. So this body has cancer. So? I'm getting rid of it soon!
[Take a pen and make a small, one-inch line on a piece of paper. Now just under it, start another line and draw it all the way to the edge of the paper. Then attach another piece of paper and continue your long line across that whole sheet of paper. Keep adding papers, until your long line stretches across your whole house. The first line, the one-inch line, that represents your life on this earth. The second line represents PART of your eternal life. Do you have a mental picture?]
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Lord Jesus, Hold me in your arms. No, better yet, bring my face just inches from yours, gently cradle each side of my jaw, and fix my eyes on You. Keep them there. In your strong gentleness, do not let me turn my head even one fraction of a degree to the left or right, to see the wind or the waves. I want only to gaze at You. You are real, all else is passing away. You are real and true.
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